Posted in Anonymity, Self-Nurture

Moving to the front of the room!

Anyone who knows me knows that when I attend functions I have a tendency to sit in the back of the room.  It’s been my way of being anonymous and yet I have been known to be a bit noisy in the back of the room, trying not to be anonymous.  It’s a seesaw kind of relationship and I know that many face the same challenges when they are deciding how they want to show up in the world.

 This past weekend I attended the Sacred Activism Conference in Tulsa, OK.  The first day I sat in the middle of the audience, but always on the end so I can make a quick escape if necessary.  On day two and then day three I moved up to the front of the auditorium.  I sat in the second row (first row was reserved for members of the panel).  When they got up to do their thing I was now in the front row of the audience.  It felt great because I was more engaged.

What I began to realize is that when I am not sitting front and center it means that I am not connected to the event, talk, meeting, etc.  Being able to be present made it easier to approach the presenters following the sessions.  It made me feel more a part of the community that inclusion was what this conference was about.  I knew that my self-inclusion had to go hand-in-hand with the group’s inclusion of me.

As I look at those facing the challenges of illness use your personal level of self-inclusivity as a barometer for the importance you give to an event.  Notice what gets your attention!  Notice what you want to be a part of !  Notice how being more present lessens your feelings of isolation and anonymity.

I’m certain going to be more aware of how I show up…won’t you show up with me?