Posted in after the diagnosis, coping with chronic illness, coping with life threatening illness, living with chronic illness, Living with Illness

What Kind of Plan?

Many people believe that there is an order to our lives and the Universe.  If that were true then there Chaos Theory would never have been discovered.  One must consider what Chaos Theory actually reveals, the idea that within chaos there is order.  Can you think of anything more fitting than chaos theory to describe being diagnosed with a chronic or life-threatening illness?

We’re always asking the questions that start with “why”.  Why did this happen to me?  Why didn’t I see the signs?  Why can’t I heal?  Why, why, why, why, why.  It’s frustrating because no one can possibly believe or ask themselves, “What kind of plan could this possibly be?”  If that’s the question then the answer lives in the idea of random occurrences.  My experience with clients over the past 20+ years is that people don’t like random occurrences, believing there’s a plan is more comforting, even if it’s unrealistic.

So we sit and wonder about the “plan”.  The real question is to look forward and ask “what next?”  Since no one plans for illness, once diagnosed maybe the mandate is to plan for health, healing and wellness.  Did you ever plan for that prior to the diagnosis?  Did it not occur to you to plan for that or did you live by the concept of, “If it’s not broken, don’t fix it.”  I know I lived like that for a long time and I can also tell you it didn’t always work out as I planned.

I would like to believe that there is a divine plan that includes my health.  However, being diagnosed with an auto-immune disease before the age of 13 I guess that plan was shot to hell.  My life has been around planning for wellness.  I’ve looked for doctors who were on the cutting edge of treatments, kept up on the latest research and data, and believed in allowing me to participate in planning for my health and wellness. It’s not something I take lightly and I hope you can begin to create your own plan for health and healing.


I've lived my life in service to others. I'm focused on mental health and how it impacts our relationships, culture, and society. Through creative expression and narrative I believe we can impact change.

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